I’m writing this in a hotel room outside Cocoa, Florida. Mom and I drove 16+ hours (not all at once, thankfully) so we could be with family and mourn my Aunt Barbara’s passing. This was one of the sudden ones and, for me, it wasn’t until the funeral that I realized that she was gone.
She was the most elegant woman I knew and an incredibly welcoming and accepting person – curious about my adventures and encouraging me to be my best self (even if that meant dragging me to the Merle Norman to get my eyebrows waxed).
I am blessed to have the vast majority of my family members as part of my tribe and people I look forward to seeing.
It’s important to me to be able to drop everything and be able to be present (to the best of my ability) for the family. I’m doing my best to structure my business and my life to allow that level of flex and presence.
This is what the personal “why” is about.
Dropping my work plans was a no-brainer against that metric.
Does it sometimes feel like I “should” be doing something else? Yup. There are so many messages telling us we must “grind” and “hustle.” Sometimes, that all has to stop for more important things.
Like being in the car for Mom as she drives down I-95, somewhat shell-shocked that her elegant, graceful older sister is gone.
Like sitting on the seawall reeling in another catfish from the backyard while letting a cousin talk it out.
Like listening to another cousin as he tries to project manage all the things that need to happen in and amongst shock and grief and unknown resources.
Like catching up with cousins and second-cousins I almost never see – save for weddings, funerals, and important events.
Am I late with newsletters and posts? Yup.
Am I behind on my launches and sales and marketing? Yup.
Will I regret coming down to Florida, spending quality time with my Mother, and adding more memories to the extended family file? Absolutely not.
Rest in peace, Barbara. And thank you so much for all of your love.
May I age as gracefully as you and develop even half of your grace and elegance.